Well it's been a while since I've blogged, with school and home and lots going on in my personal life...over the last several months I've gotten dozens of emails and requests from people who heard of my first book, "When the Lights Go Out: THE TRUTH ABOUT BLACK MALE PRISON SEXUALITY" and if they could get it in Amazon...as some of you may know, I'm not the biggest fan of their slow payment practices...but because you guys have asked for it, I've decided to re-activate my seller account and now the book is for sale on Amazon!
Now, of course the book is still available on this blog for sale for your convenience as well....it's humbling that after four years, so many requests for the book have come my way...I THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT!
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(FOR THOSE OF YOU SOOOO CAUGHT UP ON DEPARTMENT STORE LABELS AND THINGS...LMAOOOOOOOOO J/K)
Just wanted to let you guys know that my first "fiction" project, a story I've been working on for a while, will be out this spring in April 2016..it is entitled, "WE...ARE...AT...WAR..."
Part 1 will be arriving to you in April 2016..it takes place "Sometime in the very near future, in a neighborhood close, close to you".
The story starts with a tragic act of 19 police precincts being bombed simultaneously in New York, Chicago, Los Angeles, Baltimore and Newark, New Jersey. The most heinous act of domestic terrorism on American soil since the horror of 9/11, the nation is at a heightened period of racial and civil unrest. Tensions have been mounting with every murder of black young men and women in the United States by local police and law enforcement....
The protests have not worked...
The marching, and praying, and tweeting, and arguing have not led to an absolution to this crisis.
How did this happen? Who is responsible...?
The nation is at a boiling point of anger and polarization. Traditional leadership such as Rev. Al Sharpton, Rev. Jesse Jackson and others, have no credibility with the angry masses. The police have become a law unto themselves, constantly circling the wagons, insulating themselves in an "us vs. them" mentality that sees black youth, particularly black young men, as their preeminent threat. This leads to the rise of a man named Jacob Davidson, a former Navy Seal and military hero, who now works in the inner city of Newark to curb violence among his people. He witnesses his child and nephew gunned down in the street by two Newark police officers, and is now determined to lead the charge against police brutality and white supremacy. The media begins to sensationalize the unrest with constant coverage, often skewing the facts and turning the legitimate aspirations of the suffering masses into something of a joke.
"Terrorism is often like beauty....it is in the eye of the beholder" says Jacob, now the leader of the Vanguard Party for Resurrection of Truth and Justice, an outfit seen by many as "radical" and "subversive" by some, and standard bearers of truth and righteousness to others....
"We are tired of standing by while our boys are slaughtered in the streets, murdered by despicable two legged dogs with uniforms and badges. Your 'We Shall Overcome' bullshit has distracted us for way too long. The police in America have declared war on black people. It is time we fought back, and fight back to win.." shouts Jacob, a man whose military training and expertise make him particularly dangerous when radicalizing people to his cause.
This story takes many twists and turns as it unravels the origins of the tensions between blacks and law enforcement, while giving the reader a strong premonition of events to come in our future.
A future not as distant as we may believe.
This book was inspired by obvious recent events in our nation.
I haven't blogged in a while as I've been in the process of moving, working out regularly again, laying off the sauce(alcohol),and growing a new layer of comfort in my own skin.
In May of this year, I went to get a physical at my doctor. With full clothes on,plus boots, I weighed 188 lbs...(subtract seven pounds for clothes and I was 181..)..my skin was badly discolored around my cheeks, and two doctors diagnosed me with vitiligo,the same skin disorder as Michael Jackson...wasn't feeling good about myself at all, despite having friends and loved ones loving me...
I decided to work out again. At my biggest, I was a strong 235 lbs, benching well over 400 lbs, and feeling DAMN near invincible. I stopped working out four years ago. Got bored. I began drinking a "nightcap"(which,for me,was a 24 ounce glass of pure vodka straight before bed...)
Well, both me and my guy love vodka, and shit this was no problem for him...the alcohol, combined with not eating or lifting, ravaged my body slowly. The 181lbs. in May was the smallest I'd been in 11 years. Enough was enough.
I didn't know where it would lead, after four years, no weights,no diet to speak of,and drinking more than I'd ever done in life. On June 1st,I started lifting again. I began eating six small meals a day. As a promise to my guy, I would lay off the firewater on a daily basis, and only drink socially...(this was a trick on his part, because he knows I rarely go out)...from June 1st until late July, I didn't go near a scale. Too depressing after I was so small just weeks before.
July 28th rolled around. I was 215 lbs. Muscle memory kicked in when I began working out regularly again. It was like my body craved the nutrients I was missing. My skin was less discolored and healthy looking again. My mojo was back!!!! I could sleep without alcohol, and was growing faster than I had when I was in my late 20's....
The old-scratch that-new Hassan was BACK!!
At age 41, I was tired of trying to look a certain way to remain "relevant"(I laughed as I typed that... pop culture has us all caught up in the hype of looking youthful and strong). That was my problem before. I was lifting to get a nice body to attract people to me..the frustration set in when all I would meet were people who were interested in me sexually.
Now,I'm doing it for me. Health and peace are my priority now. I guess even when you think you've grown up, God shows you life lessons to let you know you're JUST getting started.."getting to happy" should be our first order of business.....
By the way....
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I wanted to take a few minutes to blog about a Youtube clip I recently came across by a woman who calls herself "LovelyTi"....she blogs several times a day and is based in Los Angeles California. This particular blog deals with a woman's claims that she, after being diagnosed as HIV positive, has willfully and deliberately slept with "hundreds" of men and engaged in unprotected sex. The woman's constant refrain was, "I'm undetectable! I'm undetectable!!!!!".
The woman appears to be on drugs or mentally unstable, or perhaps both. Whatever the situation is with this woman, "LovelyTi" chose to opine on the subject, and below is the Youtube clip of her "rant" about the issue:
In the clip, LovelyTi, a woman I follow on Youtube and whose opinion and insight on a great many things I do respect, begins to spew some of the most ignorant, ass backwards misinformation about HIV/AIDS I have heard since I joined the fight back in the late 1990's against HIV/AIDS....
Some facts first:
1). When an HIV positive person is declared by their physician to be "undetectable", it means that based on the blood work done to monitor the amount of virus in their blood, (called "viral load"), that it is so low that it poses little to no harm in the person's body. This does NOT mean the person is "cured" of the virus. One must remain vigilant and adhere to the medications prescribed by their doctor in order to maintain that status. Magic Johnson, for example, has stated on several occasions that he is "undetectable".
2).Any human being, regardless of their health or STD status, that recklessly has unprotected sex with hundreds of persons is a danger to themselves and society. This should go without saying.
3) Heterosexuals like LovelyTi, who live in a bubble that essentially believes that HIV/AIDS is primarily a "gay" disease, spew ignorance such as "I don't know what the hell UNDETECTABLE HIV is...sounds like bullshit to me!" out of fear and lack of education. She cannot help her rank stupidity and the arrogance with which she boasts about it on the above clip. We must educate, not condemn.
It speaks to a deeper code of silence within the black community...particularly black women, who spew out media driven talking points about the virus, homosexuality, etc, without understanding that there are FACTS here-scientifically established facts-that must be brought to the light if we are to truly educate our community. I was disgusted at how this woman, who has a platform wherein thousands of people watch her and listen to her on a daily basis, could be so reckless with her approach to this topic. It makes me question everything else she speaks on.
Black people tend to speak about "truth" only when it vibes with what I refer to as their "emotional narrative"...if a set of facts validates their opinion, then it is "truth"...if it doesn't then it is "bullshit" and they go right on comfortable in their ignorance UNTIL A WHITE MALE AUTHORITY FIGURE TELLS THEM DIFFERENTLY.
Lately, I have noticed that quite a few of my Facebook friends have been receiving harsh penalties for relatively minor offenses (pictures of themselves in swimwear at the beach that were not revealing, reacting to racist comments, or speaking out in general about serious political issues) while white FB members can seemingly get away with use of the N word, calling people "faggots", and many other derogatory epithets and names.
Recently, documentary filmmaker and New York Times best selling author Tariq Nasheed experienced this backlash on his own page-twice in one day. Listen to the audio clip below for his account of what happened:
What gives, Facebook? Have you hired moderators that are race soldiers of white supremacy? Odd that you would be so discriminatory given that your "founder" is a member of an ethno-religious group (Jewish)that tells its stories of hate against them all the time. I have personally reported many white supremacists and bigots of all strata, only to have FB say that "it doesn't violate our rules" to be so hateful against blacks and others.
Studies have shown that people of color use FB disproportionally more than their white counterparts. You would be wise to remember this Facebook, lest you find this charge spread all over social media and outlets around the world with just a click of a button. At that point, a "like" won't be enough.
May God be pleased with you, and your loved ones, and I pray you
receive this in a positive but strong spirit, and not one of
defensiveness and umbrage.
"Justice" is a principle of fair
dealing. It has legal, ethical, and real time aspects to it. Justice
also balances the human mind. When human beings feel deprived of
justice, their frustration, anger and
fear grows within that mind. The greater the injustice, the greater the
imbalance. To blame those deprived of justice for reacting to IN-justice
in ways not deemed "appropriate" by civil society, is morally
disingenuous. The key to solving the problem is to discover the root of
their oppression, deal with it, remove it or contain it, and then-but
ONLY then-can a spirit of PEACE begin to develop......
protesters say, "No Justice, No Peace", what they are saying is,
"without that principle of fair dealing, there will be no rest....no
ease...." to scold the victim for reacting to his oppression,only
appears that you want to PACIFY HIM OR HER, not bring peace.
Iyanla, not once have you had a show spotlighting "black on black crime"
on your "Fix My Life" series. We here in Chicago have NEVER seen you
come in the hood with your rhetoric, talking about "Fix my life"...you
are playing up to the whites and non blacks in your audience by shifting
blame to "black on black crime". Saddening.
preaching about "black on black crime" UNLESS AND UNTIL you, like many of us in as
many ways as we can try to quell this malady,roll your sleeves up and
spotlight THAT on your show, to "interrupt the pattern..." Then have seats. You look
hypocritical by droning on about that issue without ANY action on your
part. You are supposed to be an ELDER. Yet your argument is out of
Tighten up, Mama.
When the possibility that
white police officers may be threatened arises, here you come with your
cameras, trolling for ratings, trying to pacify the victim and mollify
the predators. I was HIGHLY disappointed at what you presented tonight. I
think that you bit off far more than you can chew, and some things need
time before cameras and psychobabble come into the picture.
Were you sent there to "interrupt the pattern", or pacify the
"Negroes"??? The flowery rhetoric you preach is nothing new to me. I was
raised under many Afrocentric men and women, and pastors, Imams,
etc....please be careful that your heart is clear and pure, because it
can come across as a new age, evangelical "performance" for your show
and for your boss, Oprah Winfrey.