My Talk With Death...

Hey guys....

I just got off the phone with my Mother earlier this morning...

She told me that, "I haven't been 100% honest about what the doctor told me when I visited him last week...I need you to come by and do more things that I physically can't do right now..."

She never went into details about that cryptic statement.

More to the point, I never asked.

Why, Hassan?

Please take a look at this picture.

I took this picture on April 3rd, 2013.

Looks like a normal "selfie", right?

I was broke and couldn't find my bus card that morning.

My Mother called me at roughly 6am and told me she was having a "small" heart attack.

WTF is a "small" heart attack?

Growing up, my mother was physically indomitable to me.

Only 5'2", she scared me in ways it would take hours and pages to describe.

She was invincible.

On April 3rd 2013, I entered her hospital room and looked at her.

She looked....MORTAL.

Weak.

It was at that point that I finally realized, at age 39, that I could wake up and she would no longer be here.


I was mad at Death.

From 1998-2000, I lost 11 friends and associates to HIV/AIDS related complications.

It seemed like everybody I attached myself to DIED.

When I was 19, I lost the man I called my true "brother", Aaron, to suicide.

I WAS PISSED AF AT DEATH.

On April 3rd, perhaps because of my maturity at age 39, I made peace with the concept of mortality.

ALL OF US WILL DIE.

So when my Mother made that cryptic comment, I didn't press her on it.

I will push to keep her alive as long as possible.

I no longer fear Death, however.

Death is neither Good , nor Evil.

IT JUST IS.

Now look at the picture above, again.

Can you see the pain?

Can you see.....?

It was literally when I WALKED three miles from the hospital back to my apartment.

After walking three miles to get there.

HEY BILL MAHER: GUESS WHO'S THE WORLD'S #1 TERRORIST?WHITE MEN!

Hey guys...

 I was watching "Real Time with Bill Maher" last night, as usual, and near the end of the program, Bill began riffing on Muslims being "terrorists"...he's ranted before, and each time more and more anger swelled up in me over his arrogance and hypocrisy.

Let me state clearly that I like Maher.  This dragging will be done with no hard feelings in tow.

Dear Bill,

Hi, it's me, Hassan! Remember last night when you said Muslims were the biggest terrorists in the world today? You weren't reading the "Billboard Hot 100" of world terrorists correctly. you see, the group that has held the number one spot and gone unchallenged in the last five hundred (500)years is a group that you ought to be intimately familiar with, as you are part of them...that group, is white men.

WHAT!?!?!?!

No, this isn't some racist rant from some "pseudo militant" gay black dude.

 Nah, homie.

Just spitting facts.

For arguments sake, I will only use reference sources from white men themselves on not only their historical brutality, but their current debauchery. You can look up the details. I will begin by noting the obvious: White men built a GLOBAL system designed for the promulgation, advancement, and propagandizing of a lie: The myth of white supremacy. In all areas of people activity, people that looked like you, Bill, went into every known area of the world and slaughtered, raped, pillaged, stolen resources, dehumanized, devalued, degraded the non white occupants of that area under the banner of erroneous concepts like "Manifest destiny"(some bullshit that proclaimed that it was your  God given right as white folks to steal shit), and now, after five long brutal centuries of the most cruel, inhumane treatment ever rendered in the history of the world, you, as a white male, have the nerve to proclaim someone else holds your people's crown as a terrorist.

As someone who fancies himself a progressive, I'm sure you are aware of the cliff notes version of all this...whether it was the Maori people of New Zealand, the indigenous people of North America, South America, Central America, Asia, or Africa, white folks systematically robbed, stole, and plundered the planet, terrorizing every non white person in their path. White men perfected sadistic, disgusting, cruel and wicked methods to establish and maintain control over their captives.

Trivia time!

What part of Earth are white people "indigenous" or native to?

Did you guess Europe?

NOPE.

They were not even the first people there.

Didn't know that, huh? There was a group of Africans now known as the Grimaldi, who arrived in Europe between 40 and 50,000 years ago, and through the process of speciation (evolution of distinct species due to environmental and other factors), essentially, for lack of a better term, "became" white. The climate of Europe wasn't conducive to heavy melanin and coarse hair, so as humans do, they adapted...

(I could go into Yacub's History here, but y'all ain't ready for that).

In fact, you guys aren't really native to any part of the planet Earth if you want to be technical... After the Moors civilized you guys, having conquered Europe all the way up to the gates of Vienna, you engaged in a very bitter and vicious series of wars called the Crusades with them. You defeated the Moors eventually, and this is when your reign of unprecedented terrorism begins.

White "nationalists" like Steve Bannon and Donald Trump want to relive the Crusades.

Terrorism.

Perfect word choice.

According to all of your own historians, white men set sail around the Earth, never to be subjugated again, and began a race to conquer  the darker people of the world. White men exterminated the Tazmanians in Australia, The Maori in New Zealand, and the Carib Indians. To this moment, all of the wealth whites enjoy on a relative basis, and the myriad of other privileges afforded in a system of white supremacy, was accumulated on the backs of non white people. It would take a true terrorist to do that. Every Western nation on Earth today is built upon either the overt, or in most cases covert display of white supremacy.

Muslims don't hold a candle to white men. Whether they be the Founding Fathers, or the rank and file white Christian male...white Jewish male...or  white "atheist" male, white men unite upon only one major principle. White supremacy.

Notice I haven't even begun on what white men did to black folks yet???

Now I know you are a "liberal" and that means you want me to believe that it's just those right wing  white folks that uphold such beliefs.


Malcolm X warned us clearly about the white liberal.

 

So Bill.....my suspicion is that anyone who has the nerve and audacity to set a course of action antithetical to white control and subjugation, will get the "terrorist" label placed on them.

I have no love for "ISIS" or any of  those other groups. This is merely a note to remind you that, especially a wealthy white male, you have no space calling anyone else a terrorist, given the debauchery your ilk have heaped on mankind.

(Note: Don't assume for a second that the white woman gets a pass...she is the right hand to white men in the system of white supremacy, and gives no care about picking race over gender or any other factor. Don't be deceived...I just don't feel like typing a whole book on her and him.)


I'll be watching  next Friday though Bill!

(Keep it cute though)

Brother Hassan

SOLD OUT: GOING TO DIGITAL ONLY!

Hi guys!!!!!!


Thanks for helping me get out the last few hundred copies of "When The Lights Go Out: The Truth About Black Male Prison Sexuality"  as I prepare for my next release, "The New Minstrel Show: Coonery and Buffoonery in 21st Century Black Entertainment"  later this year...

I'm not going to get any more copies printed in hardback or paperback, as I'm preparing for the new book release and need ALL coins ready for that print job....lol

While the media often paints a picture of a U.S prison system which thrives with rehabilitation and convict reform, many of those who have been inside report a dismal and shocking reality of sexual exploitation, homophobia and disease. Having experienced the dark side of the U.S criminal justice system first-hand, Hassan Hartley exposes the truth in his book, WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT: The Truth About Black Male Prison Sexuality.

The Chicago native was sentenced to three years in a Virginian prison. However, Hartley’s journey of self-correction was coupled with a deep personal study of black men around him. Noticing that many were at different levels in the self-awareness of their own sexuality, the seeds of his book were sewn.

“This book is a study into the human sexuality, and sexual identity politics of black men in American prisons. It examines the cultural, moral, and social implications of sexual behavior in prisons due to millions of black men being trafficked in and out of the criminal justice system each year” Says Hartley, who has spent the last six years researching incarcerated black men at prisons all over the United States.

 

He continues, “I explore the impact of religion and education on how black men view sex in prison, as well as the dangers of HIV and other STD infections that occur. I discuss how heterosexual, bisexual and gay men deal with each other, as well as my own unique and controversial journey that led me to write this book.”

Hartley’s work is the culmination of thousands of personal inmate interviews and online correspondence, during which he both confirmed his own beliefs and was enlightened with new, often disturbing information.

Aside from the personal identity of incarcerated black men, When the Lights Go Out also examines the impact that prison-spread sexually transmitted diseases have on the wider black community, and the United States as a whole.

“The homophobia that exists within the black community makes this discussion even more difficult, and my book serves as a bridge to promote healthy, intelligent, nuanced dialogue” Hartley adds.

 

The book has been garnering much interest among followers of Hartley’s blog. Providing an insightful narrative on the embedded homophobia surrounding current news and affairs, the blog is proving itself as an educational eye-opener on modern America.

 

 

 

IF YOU'RE BLACK, GAY, MALE AND MASCULINE....YOU MOLEST CHILDREN!?!

Wassup guys!

So....I've been listening to author/radio host/documentary filmmaker Tariq Nasheed for about 4 years now. I grew  to respect his insight on many issues related to the black collective, and found his programs both entertaining and informative. I overlooked his reference to some folks as "moist", as I have been known myself to refer to heterosexual black men and women as "breeders" on more than one occasion(72% of black children born out of wedlock...breeders seemed apt). In a broadcast of his weekly Sunday Ustream show on December 18, 2016, Tariq began, for lack of a better phrase, a "rant", directly equating black gay men who assert themselves as "masculine", with child molesters.

You read that last sentence correctly.

I didn't want to misquote Nasheed or "take him out of context", so the entire clip from the beginning of his rant to the end is posted above. I will begin quoting him at the 1:55 mark of the clip, to delineate clearly what the outrage was that I experienced when I heard this disgusting, false and bigoted commentary.

"...Yea the dude was like, 'Just because you're gay don't-you don't mean you're not masculine'...and you know what that sounds like? THAT'S CHILD MOLESTER TALK. When people start saying THAT, THAT'S child molester talk. that's what motherfuckers say to little kids that they're trying TO TURN OUT...."

I could not type any more of that disgusting garbage without literally cringing.

the entire rant is, again, posted above for all to view for yourselves.

Where do I begin....? Nasheed asserts that when black gay men assert they  also can be masculine, that the mere notion that there is ANYTHING similar to heterosexual black "manhood" is and should be a danger sign to ALL heterosexuals that this same gender loving man is predatory and wants to molest your children.

WOW.

This level of ignorance could not go without a response. So I took to Twitter and voiced my displeasure over his deplorable and despicable commentary:


Here we go:

Notice that I tagged Tariq in the post.

That's not uncommon for me. See, whatever I have to say  about a person, I DO NOT care if they see it or hear about it, because I can defend my position with TRUTH. I wasn't "trolling", I was genuinely and deeply offended by his brazenly stupid comments. I have been out of the closet since December 1994, a time when it was much more unspoken and taboo to be same gender loving in the black community than it is now. I am, and we as same gender loving people are a part of the black community and experience, whether the bigots like it or not.

Please note that I am using the term "bigot", rather than "homophobic". One of the games that the "conscious" black community loves to play is a word game. They dissect the word "homophobia" and center on the "phobia" part, to which they always reply, "I'm not scared of (gays)!" (insert expletive or slur in place of gay). To pinpoint his ignorance and not allow these Negroes to deflect and change the narrative, call them what they are: anti gay "bigots".  Honestly though, being that Tariq was a critically acclaimed filmmaker and NY Times best selling author, I didn't expect him to respond to my tweet.

Nor did I expect him to respond within three minutes of my posting it.

Here was his first response:

 

LOL....wait, what???

 

I leveled a serious charge at the guy, and his only response was to not only avoid the comment, but suggest that I want his "attention"?

 

Does his attention come with $$$? Because if not, go kill yourself.

 

Being that now I would have to behave as the "adult" in the discussion, I clarified my statement and remained firm.

 

Now anyone who knows me, knows that I could tear the skin off of this thin skinned heterosexual butch queen and drag his ass to the gates of  Hell verbally...

 

 

...clearly if he is too weak in his defense of his own "truth", then I will destroy this jackass with ease.

....but I respected the guy....I bought Hidden Colors 1,2,3,and 4, and have even shown them in my classes to my students.

 

SO......

 

Maybe he didn't know what I was talking about SPECIFICALLY.

 

So I showed him.....

 

 

Well now is the moment of truth.

 

 I posted his own words IN FRONT OF THE WORLD back to him, so he cannot continue to deny that he made these appalling comments.

 

I even told him where in the clip to begin....LOL....

 

That made the thin skinned heterosexual butch queen Tariq Nasheed furious.

I stayed gracious, fully aware that what Tariq wants is to bait you into an angry response so that he can paint you as the "troll".

 

 

I played it cool and ENDED the conversation.

 

 

 

What a disappointment. A brother that I thought had the maturity and class to defend his position when questioned about it, deflected and made this some false narrative about me wanting "attention" from him.

 

When I said,  "Have a great day..." he did something I would never have foreseen.

 

This thirsty, tired, trolling ass heterosexual butch queen got under not ONE...OR TWO....OR THREE...BUT FOUR FAKE ACCOUNTS and started trolling ME!

 

LOL!!!!!!!!!!

(click the link below; tired of posting tweets one by one LOL)

 

READ MY TWEETS TO SEE THE FAKE TARIQ ACCOUNTS

 

 

So....Tariq Nasheed goes on and on and on in this clip to call heterosexual black men "real niggas", suggest that black gay men get preferential treatment in corporate America (although he has NEVER worked in a Fortune 500 company to know this), and that we, black same gender loving men, are AGENTS OF WHITE SUPREMACY HELL BENT ON DESTROYING THE BLACK COMMUNITY.

 

 

I didn't make that bullshit up.

 

Thoughts....?

 

 

 

 

 

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HEY GUYS!

 

Well it's been a while since I've blogged, with school and home and lots going on in my personal life...over the last several months I've gotten dozens of emails and requests from people who heard of my first book, "When the Lights Go Out: THE TRUTH ABOUT BLACK MALE PRISON SEXUALITY" and if they could get it in Amazon...as some of you may know, I'm not the biggest fan of their slow payment practices...but because you guys have asked for it, I've decided to re-activate my seller account and now the book is for sale on Amazon!

Now, of course  the book is still available on this blog for sale for your convenience as well....it's humbling that after four years, so many requests for the book have come my way...I THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT!

(REMEMBER: PURCHASING THROUGH THIS BLOG GETS YOUR COPY TO YOU FASTER!)

 

(FOR THOSE OF YOU SOOOO CAUGHT UP ON DEPARTMENT STORE LABELS AND THINGS...LMAOOOOOOOOO J/K)

Thanks again guys!!!!!!!!

 

 

HERE'S A SYNOPSIS OF WHAT THE BOOK IS ALL ABOUT... 

 

 

While the media often paints a picture of a U.S prison system which thrives with rehabilitation and convict reform, many of those who have been inside report a dismal and shocking reality of sexual exploitation, homophobia and disease. Having experienced the dark side of the U.S criminal justice system first-hand, Hassan Hartley exposes the truth in his new book; WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT: The Truth About Black Male Prison Sexuality.

The Chicago native was sentenced to three years in a Virginian prison. However, Hartley’s journey of self-correction was coupled with a deep personal study of black men around him. Noticing that many were at different levels in the self-awareness of their own sexuality, the seeds of his book were sewn.

“This book is a study into the human sexuality, and sexual identity politics of black men in American prisons. It examines the cultural, moral, and social implications of sexual behavior in prisons due to millions of black men being trafficked in and out of the criminal justice system each year” Says Hartley, who has spent the last six years researching incarcerated black men at prisons all over the United States.

 

He continues, “I explore the impact of religion and education on how black men view sex in prison, as well as the dangers of HIV and other STD infections that occur. I discuss how heterosexual, bisexual and gay men deal with each other, as well as my own unique and controversial journey that led me to write this book.”

Hartley’s work is the culmination of thousands of personal inmate interviews and online correspondence, during which he both confirmed his own beliefs and was enlightened with new, often disturbing information.

Aside from the personal identity of incarcerated black men, When the Lights Go Out also examines the impact that prison-spread sexually transmitted diseases have on the wider black community, and the United States as a whole.

“The homophobia that exists within the black community makes this discussion even more difficult, and my book serves as a bridge to promote healthy, intelligent, nuanced dialogue” Hartley adds.

 

The book is already garnering much interest among followers of Hartley’s blog. Providing an insightful narrative on the embedded homophobia surrounding current news and affairs, the blog is proving itself as an educational eye-opener on modern America.

 

 

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WE....ARE...AT....WAR.....coming April 2016

Hello everyone!


                                   Just wanted to let you guys know that my first "fiction" project, a story I've been working on for a while, will be out this spring in April 2016..it is entitled,



"WE...ARE...AT...WAR..."





Part 1 will be arriving to you in April 2016..it takes place "Sometime in the  very near future, in a neighborhood close, close to you".



The story starts with a tragic act of 19 police precincts being bombed simultaneously in New York, Chicago, Los Angeles, Baltimore and Newark, New Jersey. The most heinous act of domestic terrorism on American soil since the horror of 9/11, the nation is at a heightened period of racial and civil unrest. Tensions have been mounting with every murder of black young men and women in the United States by local police and law enforcement....

The protests have not worked...

The marching, and praying, and tweeting, and arguing have not led to an absolution to this crisis.

How did this happen? Who is responsible...?



The nation is at a boiling point of anger and polarization. Traditional leadership such as Rev. Al Sharpton, Rev. Jesse Jackson and others, have no credibility with the angry masses. The police have become a law unto themselves, constantly circling the wagons, insulating themselves in an "us vs. them" mentality that sees black youth, particularly black young men, as their preeminent threat. This leads to the rise of a man named Jacob Davidson, a former Navy Seal and military hero, who now works in the inner city of Newark to curb violence among his people. He witnesses his child and nephew gunned down in the street by two Newark police officers, and is now determined to lead the charge against police brutality and white supremacy. The media begins to sensationalize the unrest with constant coverage, often skewing the facts and turning the legitimate aspirations of the suffering masses into something of a joke.

No more.

"Terrorism is often like beauty....it is in the eye of the beholder" says Jacob, now the leader of the Vanguard Party for Resurrection of Truth and Justice, an outfit seen by many as "radical" and "subversive" by some, and standard bearers of truth and righteousness to others....




"We are tired of standing by while our boys are slaughtered in the streets, murdered by despicable two legged dogs with uniforms and badges. Your 'We Shall Overcome' bullshit has distracted us for way too long. The police in America have declared war on black people. It is time we fought back, and fight back to win.." shouts Jacob, a man whose military training and expertise make him particularly dangerous when radicalizing people to his cause.

This story takes many twists and turns as it unravels the origins of the tensions between blacks and law enforcement, while giving the reader a strong premonition of events to come in our future.

A future not as distant as we may believe.

This book was inspired by obvious recent events in our nation.

2015: UPS,DOWNS,AND GETTING TO HAPPY!!!

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Hey guys...

I haven't blogged in a while as I've been in the process of moving, working out regularly again, laying off the sauce(alcohol),and growing a new layer of comfort in my own skin.

In May of this year, I went to get a physical at my doctor. With full clothes on,plus boots, I weighed 188 lbs...(subtract seven pounds for clothes and I was 181..)..my skin was badly discolored around my cheeks, and two doctors diagnosed me with vitiligo,the same skin disorder as Michael Jackson...wasn't feeling good about myself at all, despite having friends and loved ones loving me...

I decided to work out again. At my biggest, I was a strong 235 lbs, benching well over 400 lbs, and feeling DAMN near invincible. I stopped working out four years ago. Got bored. I began drinking a "nightcap"(which,for me,was a 24 ounce glass of pure vodka straight before bed...)

Well, both me and my guy love vodka, and shit this was no problem for him...the alcohol, combined with not eating or lifting, ravaged my body slowly. The 181lbs. in May was the smallest I'd been in 11 years. Enough was enough.

I didn't know where it would lead, after four years, no weights,no diet to speak of,and drinking more than I'd ever done in life. On June 1st,I started lifting again. I began eating six small meals a day. As a promise to my guy, I would lay off the firewater on a daily basis, and only drink socially...(this was a trick on his part, because he knows I rarely go out)...from June 1st until late July, I didn't go near a scale. Too depressing after I was so small just weeks before.

July 28th rolled around. I was 215 lbs. Muscle memory kicked in when I began working out regularly again. It was like my body craved the nutrients I was missing. My skin was less discolored and healthy looking again.  My mojo was back!!!! I could sleep without alcohol, and was growing faster than I had when I was in my late 20's....

The old-scratch that-new Hassan was BACK!!

At age 41, I was tired of trying to look a certain way to remain "relevant"(I laughed as I typed that... pop culture has us all caught up in the hype of looking youthful and strong). That was my problem before. I was lifting to get a nice body to attract people to me..the frustration set in when all I would meet were people who were interested in me sexually.

Now,I'm doing it for me. Health and peace are my priority now. I guess even when you think you've grown up, God shows you life lessons to let you know you're JUST getting started.."getting to happy" should be our first order of business..... By the way.... Don't forget to grab a copy of my first book, "WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT"...

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